Sanity... A Thing of the Past

So, there's thing called sanity, I lost it a long time ago! Ever since Bella was born, my work schedule has been so out of whack. This means that there was been more time at home, which is great dont get me wrong. But sometimes, I just lose my mind. Bewitching our is insane, everyone is screaming, everybody needs something and there is only one of me!! Im so glad that Jason starts his new job tomorrow so I can have some extra adult interaction now that he will be home around 5 instead of 7!
While I am home (and even when Im at work) I have an outlet, a place where everyone gets each other, a place where we are all understood. This place is a group of women that I have never met, a group of ladies who all had babies around the same time. We laugh, we cry, we obsess over things together. Without these awesome ladies, I woiuld be lost most days. I feel pretty lucky to have "met" these ladies.

Just One Extra Kiss Goodnight.....

I am extremely lucky to have 4 beauiful and healthy children, however, I know that not everyone gets to have be that lucky. It breaks my heart every time I hear of a child who is sick, has an illness or leaves this world. Yesterday I heard of a women who just lost her 3 month old to SIDS after losing her triplets a few years before. This is such devestating news, and I dont know if I would be able to be as strong as she is, and I dont know her.
So tonight, when I lay my kids to sleep, I will hug them extra tight, I will give them an extra kiss goodnight!

I sure... NO ESURE!

Made my way to the doctor today for my pre-op appointment to close up shop. I decided on the esure, which is an in patient minimally invasive procedure that is done in my doctors office. While I was there, she asked me the "are you sure?" question. She mentioned that were other forms of birth control like Mirena and IUD which can last 5-10 years. There was a little part of me that thought... "hum.. maybe..." then I snaped back to reality and told her that I was very much done and had no intentions of having and more children. It was bittersweet however. I miss being pregnant, and having babies, but I know that there is no way I can swing another baby in my life. Its hard making that decision at 26 years old, but I know that it is the best decision I can make. So because Jason is switching jobs around the time that I wanted to get this done, that means that his insurance will be different. So I cant pre certify and get the ball moving until we get that info. So I guess we have to wait until the end of the month or next.
In other news, a very good friend of mine for high school just got engaged last weeked to her boyfriend of 5 years. She is planning on having her wedding on Breanna's birthday, September 29th and asked me to be in her wedding. I am super excited and happy for her. The only problem is that this is the second wedding that I will standing up to this year, and my body is no where near where I want it to be. So now I must prepare for these weddings and lose as much as I can!
Well, gotta finish dinner for the kiddos.. heres to another day of the new year!

Potato... Potado...

So for the longest time I have been concerned with Olivia's speech. She talks in long paragraphs, sometimes you cant ever get her to be quiet. However, there are times when I cant understand her for the life of me. I know that this frustrates her at times, but I cant always count on big brother Gabriel to come save the day and translate for me. So a few months back I went the school district who were doing a pre school screening and she was directed to the NSSED (North Suburban Special Education). For the past 2 months or so they have been doing an evaulation process with her where they went to her school and watched how she interacts and talks at school, one time was a psychologist and one is a speech therapy. Today, the psychologist is over at our house to work with her and play games with her and on Tuesday the speech therapist is coming over to work with her as well. We are all still in the evaluation process but I hope that when its all said and done, they will be able to work with her and help her be able to communicate in a more effective way.
On another note, on Wednesday I have to go to Gabriels school for a meeting with his teachers, the school psychologist etc to see about getting him tested for dyslexia. I have brought this up with all his teachers starting in kindergarden. Even now, in second grade, he has a hard time with writing some letters and numbers backwards and his writing is a huge struggle for him. Last year they worked with him on his reading that seemed to improve dramatically. The only reason that I want him tested is because I have it and it wasnt until my junior year in high school that I found out. I dont want that to be the case for him. If he does have it, I want him to be able to find ways to cope and to learn ways around the disablity to he can learn and grow from it. I told the school psychologist that the only reason that dyslexia has come up is because of my own struggles. I hope that this meeting will help us figure out what the best steps to take.
Well... I guess thats all. Ill post what happens after his appointment.. until then....just another day of a new year!

New Year.. New Pointless Arguments

As I sit here watching my girls fight over the same piece of paper I wonder what is actually going through their heads! In my opinion, it is a pointless argument and we have plenty of paper in this house to go around. I guess this is a glimpse of what is to come in my household with three girls as they grow up! I'm shaking in my boots... no really.. I am!
On another note, I got home from work last night around 1am because of some dumb issues we were having with our mircos system. I got home, laid down in bed just to realize that the next morning was the first day back to school for Gabriel and I actually had to set my alarm for 7:30am. I was dreading the fact, considering that all of break I have been sleeping to almost 9 every morning because there was so much stuff going on that the kids would sleep in. I reluctently got up at 8 to my 730 alarm by the time I was finished snoozing it. I went into Gabriel's room and was surprised to find him still asleep. I got him up and told him he has 10 min to get out of the house. I went to the kitchen and made him a packed lunch for the first time in 2 weeks and sent him off on the bus. I then realized that the house is still quiet and all the girls are still sleeping, so I decided to quietly lay back down, snuggle under the blankets and fall back asleep until the girls got up around 915. It was glorious that extra hour of sleep!
Right now Bella is quietly playing on her play mat while the Breanna and Olivia are finally done arguing over the paper (Breanna came to apologize and Olivia gave her a hug and said that's ok... clearly typical girl behavior)and they are now watching sprout now that my comcast cable box issues are finally resolved.
Here is to another day in the new year....

Happy New Year 2012

It is hard to believe that this year has gone by so quickly already. It seems as though we just found out that we were expecting our fourth bundle of joy, when in reality she is now 3 months old!
Alot has happened this last year and I hope to start out the new year on the right foot! I have many goals for this year and I hope to accomplish some of them to the best of my ability. I want to be able to lose weight and get in shape, not only for myself, but for my brothers wedding that is coming up this July! I hope to get organized in every aspect of my life to have a less chaotic day to day! I hope that GOBI spend the year growing and learning but also having fun. I also hope that this year we can get on our feet financially again and by more settled down.
I do know that we are starting the new year on a good note. Jason was just offered a new job that he will start in two weeks. It is what we have been hoping for and are excited for the new opportunies that this job will bring. The kids and I are excited that Daddy will only be working 5 minutes away and we will be able to spend more family time together!
Well here is to the new year, wishing all a happy and healthy 2012